long time, no post.

Whoa. Long time, no post.

I sort of gave up on this xanga thing since everyone else has ditched it.

But I though today I would post a little. I love going on here now and then and looking back to one year ago and the things I was learning and where I was in life. So even if nobody reads this thing. At least I will in a year.

My life has been very busy... like the normal college student I guess.

Lots of changes taking place in my heart about living life. I view things very differently than I did in the past.

... I think understanding is the key to relating with others. Why should everyone think the same way we do when they have not lived the life they have:? I really value understanding people who are different from me in my life. I like it because it is not so intimidating to me anymore, but more an opportunity to grow and learn from them.

New developments in life...

... well not a whole lot to report....

I am super excited to possibily be taking a cna course this summer and finally becoming a nursing assistant! This is a dream that I have had for a long time. I think it would be such a ministry. We will see what happens with that.

I have become super passionate about health and wellness these past 6 months. I have learned SO much about how drastically the quality of your life can change through making changes in your lifestyle. (a.k.a eatting organic and exercising) I have seen these changes take place in my own life as I have slowly been changing how I live. It is seriously amazing. Maybe more to come on that later... it really is facinating. If you want to learn about it go to jillianmichaels.com and listen to her radio show podcasted on there. She is a bit narcissistic, but super educated!

Allow me to leave you with a cheesy, yet quite true quote...

"Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to take rank with those poor souls who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat."

-Theodore Roosevelt

$ $ $

I have in these past few months become a die hard fan of a man named Dave Ramsey...

you may have never heard of him, but let me tell you listening to his radio show is changing the way I live. This man is a fanancial guru. He gives Biblical advice to people on their fanacial questions. People also call in and tell their stories about how they got out of thousands of dollars of debt because of his program!

For all you with student loans, you should start listening to this man with me!

He radio show is podcasted, or just go to http://www.daveramsey.com

He will help you gian wisdom!

its a mystery.

[ These lyrics bring things into perspective for me. ]

You saved yourself for the weak,

the broken and the meek,

only the hungry dine,

only the thirsty drink deep,

you saved yourself for the needy,

you saved yourself for me.

you are a mystery.

so inviting.

i want to waste my life to search you out.

.:Between:.

There is this Switchfoot song that has a line that says, "between who you are and who you could be, between how things are and how they should be."

I find that I always think that is where I am... between.

Because in my mind all I see is how I think things SHOULD be...

         But they are never that way.

         never.

I am learning countless lessons as I spend my summer working two days a week and spending the rest of my time at home miles from civilization. This solitude is killing me.

Certianly this isn't how things should be.  

But His truth holds true. even now. when it is harder than hard. even when I do not feel it.

even when I struggle to hold on.

Truth is truth.

Maybe things should be different than my little mind concludes.

Regardless redemption is here.

"Life takes place behind the face.

I am the Lord's garden... his resting place."

His mercy and grace will never forsake me.

Amen.

He won't relent.

Habakkuk 3:19

The Lord GOD is my strength,

And He has made my feet like hinds' feet,

And makes me walk on my high places.

Song of Songs 8:6

I set you as a seal upon my heart

as a seal upon my arm, for there is love as strong as death

jeoulsy demanding as the grave

many waters cannot quench this love.

You won't relant until you have it all.

My heart is yours.

Come be the fire inside of me.

Come be the flame upon my heart.

Until you and I are one.